Author Archives: Johnna

About Johnna

I am a Christian educator and writer.I have worked in churches, denominational offices, and seminaries. I have a PhD in Theology from Princeton Theological Seminary, with a focus on Practical Theology and educating in faith. In 2010, my book, "How the Other Half Lives: the challenges facing clergy spouses and partners," was published by Pilgrim Press. I believe that words can build doorways that lead to encounters with God through the Spirit.

Where Am I?

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free

’tis the gift to come down where we ought to be

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

’twill be in the valley of love and delight.

Simple Gifts, traditional Shaker hymn

I don’t know that we think about where we ought to be much these days. Where we want to be, but not so much where we ought to be. Because where we want to be sounds like a lot more fun than where we ought to be. But what if that assumption is false? What if where we ought to be is someplace that fills our souls with peace and our hearts with joy?

I think we are where we ought to be more than we realize. We are there to open a door for someone else, wait with patience in the check-out line, read a bedtime story for the umpteenth time, or stand firm when the right thing to do is going to cost us.

The question is: do we notice when we are where we ought to be? Are we aware enough to feel the peace and joy that are ours in this place of ought to be?

To Be Free

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free

’tis the gift to come down where you ought to be

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

twill be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,

to bow and to bend we shan’t ashamed

to turn, turn will be our delight

’til by turning, turning we come round right.

Traditional Shaker Hymn

There have been many times in my life when I had to choose between seeking something I wanted for myself directly and seeking a way that offered something not quite what I wanted and something life-giving for those I love most in this world. When I’ve chosen the second path, it’s always held something unexpected, usually as intriguing and life-giving as the more obvious choice. What I got out of it was always enough.

I can’t say I’ve always chosen wisely, or been particularly gracious or thankful for the alternate path. I can say that I’ve lived a deeper, more sacred life – even though it may not look like what I originally imagined, wanted, or expected. I am grateful for the choice in the first place, and for God’s presence on my chosen path. Maybe the gift to be free is the blessing to choose until I end up where I ought to be…

Thanksgiving: Simple Gifts

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free

’tis the gift to come down where you ought to be

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

twill be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gained,

to bow and to bend we shan’t ashamed

to turn, turn will be our delight

’til by turning, turning we come round right.

Traditional Shaker hymn

‘Tis the gift to be simple…

…not simplistic. Simple isn’t ignorant: simple is seeing the essence, not getting distracted or captured by superfluous add-ons. Simple should not be mistaken for easy.

In graduate school, most of the assigned books were poorly written and the lectures often full of unnecessarily obscure vocabulary. I often wondered whether the professors remembered that the purpose was to foster the learning of others rather than to make their students feel unprepared and incapable. What should have evoked joy and wonder – the luxury of learning and pondering how such learning could make this time and place more blessed – usually didn’t.

The gift to be simple is the gift to not oversimplify or over complicate – to see things clearly and to share that vision with others without fuss or condescension. It is to realize that the truth of the cosmos is written in nimble poetry more often than stilted prose.

To be thankful for the gift to be simple is to stop trying to hide the fullness of self – and to stop running from the enormity of this God created and God related cosmos.

In Memoriam: Taylor

Taylor

He would go for walks with us, following along to keep us company. We always knew when he was near because his nails would click on the floor – he didn’t retract them as most cats do. He was part of our daily lives for over twelve years. He was more a dog in a cat suit than a cat.

After a good life and a few months of medical adventures, his body stopped working. We did the hard right thing, letting him go rather than let him live in pain. The tears we cry now are a sure sign of the love and grace Taylor brought into our lives.

Rest In Peace

High Water

Robert Kegan

These days, there’s so much coming at us from all sides. The noise of media never stops; it comes with a chirp on our phones, with the never-ending ticker tape running across the bottom of the television screen, with flashing billboards that cram two or three ads in the time it takes to drive past them on our morning commutes. Where is the high ground, the safe space that offers rescue and rest from the deafening storm of modern life?

Modern life isn’t providing a multitude of ideas akin to brainstorming. The pace of it is too rapid to be absorbed or digested. The response is to hunker down, to weather it.

So what can we do, how do we aim for more than surviving this modern life? The answers are ancient: breathe. center. cultivate silence.

Will we miss out on some interesting things by doing these things? Absolutely.

Will it save us from drowning in the maelstrom of things tearing us apart? We’ll only know by trying…

[Robert Kegan wrote this book in the 1990’s. His main point: it isn’t enough to be a good person and a skilled, dedicated worker to live a successful life. Modern life demands critical thinking skills never required in past decades. And our society is not fostering those skills.]

What Do You See?

Not the typical Stephen King...

It could be a dragon’s eye. Maybe a chambered nautilus done in blue brick. A stairwell – an actual well with stairs? The font is strange, with the title on what could be a music staff – the F and T both look like they have musical notes incorporated in their design (the P and E are made of spikes or nails). It could also be the lines you find in first grade, guides for those learning how to write. A boy and a shepherd are walking down the lantern lit stairs. Throw Stephen King’s name writ large on the top, and it’s one of the oddest book covers I’ve ever seen. Stephen King writing a fairy tale?

King is a master of horror, not fairy tales. Then again, if you un-Disneyfy and de-sanitize what passes for fairy tales these days, you’ll find that plenty of horror clings to the traditional versions. Is this cover giving fair warning that what is within might be dangerous? That ran through my mind when I saw it at the Northshire Book Store. And when I brought it home.

I think this cover asks a question: are you brave enough to dare looking inside? Will you open the door and go in? Are you willing to leave your ideas of what is real and what is possible behind?

If I’m honest, a look in the mirror or into the face of another brings up the same questions…am I up for the adventure of a lifetime, full of shadows and blinding light?

Are you?

A Pause, and a Second Look

I didn’t pick up this book for myself; it was a Christmas gift for my then seventeen year old son, who has created art that fits well in the Modern Art category. Because he said it changed his whole understanding of Art, I read it.

What are you looking at? Add one of the most recognizable modern art images, and it’s hard not go beyond the cover.

The book itself is amazing. Gompertz walks readers through the history and expressions of modern art, making accessible a whole category of work that I’d never given any time or attention to. Now, instead of my eyes sliding over the modern art pieces in a museum as I scurry to the Impressionist gallery, I stop and spend time really looking at them. I give them more than a passing glance because the cover of this book led to the pages inside, led to a pause, and led to a second look. I move beyond my first, fleeting impression.

What are you looking at? What am I looking at? Dangerous, life-altering questions. Because if we stop and ask them, pause for a second look, we might just see what is right in front of us. We might look at that bush long enough to see it burning. We might hear the voice of God. And we might remove our sandals because we know that we walk on holy ground.

If we don’t pause, we’ll miss it. At least for the time being. I suspect that the Holy will continue planting burning bushes and sacred images on our paths until we finally stop and look.

Struck

Wonder, like lightning, strikes in a way that illuminates. It can destroy the suffocating numbness that can kill the spirit as it dulls the senses. It can even strike so deep that the old way of being in the world is incinerated, allowing a new person to rise from its ashes.

True wonder inspires a heart-thumping awe, not a warm fuzzy awww. Lest we forget the nature of who we are, the cosmos we inhabit, and by whose hand it came into being…

For the title, the image of lightning hitting New York City, and for the ghost of a building in the clouds, Brian Selznick’s Wonder Struck is well worth reading and beholding. The inside is every good as the cover.

[New York: Scholastic Press, 2011[)

By The Cover

I see thousands of books every week, checked out or returned by hundreds of people. Most don’t grab my attention beyond the perfunctory amount required to get them where they need to be. But a few do. Either the artwork or the titles, occasionally even subtitles, extend an almost irresistible invitation to pause, to venture beyond the cover into the depths of whatever story it guards. All The Light We Cannot See, What Are You Looking At?, Fire & Blood – just to name three.

Why these covers and not others? I suspect it’s as much about my own way of seeing the world as it is the scant number of words on the book covers…

How about you? What titles and images snagged your attention? Let’s take a longer look together…

Looping Back

The dumpster is nearly full, packed with twin bed frames, a couple of lawn mowers (drained of fluids), one of those corner entertainment cabinets so useful before flat screen televisions and so useless after. Both of my adult sons have gone through the attic and basement, putting aside things they want to keep and piling up whatever will be donated or thrown away.

The furniture in this space is a mix of things we’ve had for years, a few newer additions, and some pieces our son picked up in the three years he lived here alone. The same goes for the art on the walls and the kitchen supplies. There are still a lot of boxes to unpack as well as furniture that will need to be rearranged, but the home we returned to after a three year absence won’t look like it did before we left it. That’s good: none of us are in the same place in life that we held back then. This home should reflect that.

This whole move back feels something like walking a labyrinth. I’ve traveled a bit, then looped back – not exactly where I was before, and not exactly the same person I was before. Things change, the perspective changes, and I change along with them – whether I am living in a different house or in the same space, life moves me along. And just like walking a labyrinth, it can be a holy experience or a practically pointless looping back and forth. My choice as to which I choose.

finger labyrinth